confidence

so since i've been here it's been kinda boring. i've gone out every day with my brother, but it wasn't until today that i went by myself. in decatur i loved driving myself places and going alone. in provo it took a while to get used to it. but eventually i got a hang of the town (while just a passenger i never paid attention to directions so it wasn't until i got a car that i actually needed to know where places were, so i got lost a lot haha). so once i knew where everything was, i left. hm. my sister-in-law offered to let me use her gps to get around town but i didn't take it with me. my brother had shown me the main roads by the house and i felt i had to prove it to myself that i could get around. i had thought rubi was giving me problems and i was nervous about driving her by myself, but after tonight i think she's okay. so i went out by myself and just drove around. i got a little lost but i found my way back. i even went in a target with no face on, hair un-done, and wearing a nasty t-shirt. hey, i don't know anyone in town yet so no one could recognize me and judge me. :)

independence is a wonderful thing. i love having the freedom to go wherever, whenever i want. you ever just have to prove to yourself that you can do something? it may be something as simple as finding your way around your new place of residence, starting a new job, or something much bigger. whatever it is, having confidence in yourself is important. i've always felt confident about who i was, but since i've been here it's been hard. i miss my friends, i miss knowing where i'm going, i miss my apartment and roommates, and i even miss my old boss and co-workers. i worked two extra weeks so i could train like 7 people. it was really weird to see our group change. i know change is a good thing, but it was weird, especially because for the last two weeks i didn't have a floor and was just a roaming worker, looking for odds and ends to clean.

one thing i've learned at byu is the value of a good friend. i thought i made a lot of good friends at the 'y' but how many of them do i talk to now? i've only been gone a week and i've only heard from one of them. fair? i don't think so. i want some friends! hopefully this sunday i'll meet some nice people. my ward is the "fiesta ward." promising? hope so.

arizona: land of heat

so i'm in arizona and i'm dying already. my brother and sister-in-law say it's cool weather, but i think it's so hot!! how will i survive?!?! so far i'm enjoying it. my brother took me around town today and there's two pretty cool malls super close. i've just been applying for jobs and keeping my fingers crossed that something comes up.

road trips, tv, books, and movies

okay, so that last post was a little weird. but hey, i'm a little weird. so how is life after graduation? well, relaxing. i really like not studying. finals were so emotionally exhausting. BUT, i got a GPA so that if i do decide i want to go to gradschool in the future, i can.

so far after graduation i've gone to enterprise, utah with family; i worked for two more weeks; and now i'm staying with a friend this week to help her out with a few things and then i'm off to arizona this weekend. i love road trips and i'm super excited to take this one by myself. it'll be the longest one i've done alone. 12hrs is a long drive. but first i'll be stopping at my other brother's place in enterprise and staying the night so i'll only have an 8hr drive the next day. i think that will save me.

confession: i've recently discovered my addiction for Glee. i'm addicted!! my friend and i have been watching non-stop episodes on Netflix. i've also rediscovered my love for reading. thanks to a great co-workers, i have a list of books to read for the summer. 36, to be precise. and the one i'm reading currently isn't actually the list...so i've got 37. i'm reading "jane eyre" right now and it's pretty awesome. i've already seen several movie versions of the book, but as i've learned, movies never compare to the book.

as for movies, i haven't seen any good ones lately. but i just saw a preview for a new x-men that comes out early june. excited!!